It's been a while since I really sat down and wrote about how things are going in the Schiffman household. So here are a few updates. Tyler is moving up in the world of Logan Coach; meaning he will hopefully no longer be working on the floor, but actually using the drafting program he is learning in school. This will at least give him some experience that he can later list on his resume. We are also hoping it means a raise, but it hasn't really come up yet. As for school, it looks like he will be graduating in March. (Hopefully). I am still in school and currently doing what I pray is the last math class I have to take for my major. I really am terrible at math. I'm just trying to get it out of the way. I'm still not working. I am just a stay at home mom. Which in reality is a full time job in and of itself. With Michael still behind I'm speech life is always an adventure. In the next few months he will be undergoing more evaluations to see if he qualifies for the preschool down on the island. They work with a lot of kids like him. I pray that he does. Not only would it help with speech but it would also get him time to socialize more than once a week at nursery. As for the youngest member of the family, Benjamin is growing up so fast! It really doesn't feel like it's been seven months since he was born. He is so active! He loves to play and army crawl around. He eats all he can get his hands on. And is getting the top four teeth. His smiles bring so much light into my life. And his little chuckle is the cutest thing in the world. I honesty can't imagine my life without him, without either of the boys really.
When I got pregnant with Michael there was a lot of skepticism, which hurt if I'm telling the truth. Yes I am a young mother, but I've always wanted to be a mom. I mean just ask my mother! When I was little I had over a hundred imaginary children. Not kidding. I also used to breastfeed my baby dolls... There are so many things I've been unsure of in my life, but getting pregnant so early was never one of them. And looking back at the way things happened ; let's just say that I'm grateful I'm still here. I still have my struggles, but I have to believe that they are all worth it. If I had succeeded in taking my life so many years ago, I'd have missed so many worthwhile things. That doesn't mean I haven't made mistakes since then, but I've learned from them.
I still have a lot to learn, because I'm not perfect. Not in the least... I just hope that I'm strong enough. I want to be strong enough for my boys.
